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Before God was an Atheist…

Before I was a Christian, there pulsed within my blood an innate desire to scrutinize those who were…or at least people who had these “ridiculous” beliefs about some master of our universe…and what about other universes? Maybe there was a different God assigned to that one. I always gave credit to myself for being too smart to be conned into a rigid belief system that I assumed denied science and rational thought. Plus, I was happy thinking that if God gave me a mind to think, why would he punish me for using mine to deny his existence and embrace wordly concepts?

I was fond of philosophy, humor and cussing – which I confess, has yet to change now that I know God.

I thought that pursuing a religion or faith meant I had to give up the reality I had created for myself and the control I thought I had. Now, I can look back and see how God was working in my life, even when I never knew of his existence. Sometimes a flood of gratitude sweeps over my body and I’m hurled into a sea of tears. My world was like an Alice in Wonderland playground. My curiosity led to disaster, unanswered illusions, and complete chaos.

Now that I am a Christian, I struggle every day to die to myself. Those years of compounded beliefs that denied my savior come up to haunt me still. It’s a constant battle with myself to let go of the reigns and let God guide my path.
Just because I believe in God, doesn’t mean I don’t believe in science.

Just because I believe in God, doesn’t mean I don’t believe in this world.

Just because I believe in God, doesn’t mean I don’t believe in myself.

I believe in God who created science, conquered this world, and gave me breath to live out His plan.

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A Simple Truth

He is Greater than any fear

He is closer than anyone else near

He delights in you and wants your best

He watches over you while you rest

He is strong yet sweet

He knows no defeat

He provides warmth and comfort from the cold

He provides a shield in battle for the bold

He is beyond your reach, yet within your soul

He’s the other half of you that makes you whole

He is what guides you in moments of unknown

He is always there, you’re never alone

 

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Day 4 Devotional: Light Shines in Darkness

 

Light Shines in Darkness

Day 4 Devotional: Thursday, Sept 22

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Every morning when the sun shines

I know Lord, that you are mine

Even when darkness threatens to take

my sleep-filled night and keep me awake

I approach this day with a holy power

Knowing that you are with me every hour

In you, your light overcomes all fear

You shine bright and make things clear

No matter what lies ahead today

You will go before me and make the grey

Turn to light, bright with beauty

Because my God, you are with me

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Day 3 Devotional: Don’t Quit

Well, I promised to write a devotion a day, no matter how I felt, starting in April 2015. It’s no surprise that my lofty idea quickly lost momentum, and I only posted two daily devotionals. Ah, shucks.

I am notorious for starting projects without ever finishing them. I joke that I have ADD, mostly because I’m serious. It’s really difficult for me to keep focused on anything in life.

So, instead of promising specific dates and times, I wanted to pick up where I left off. I’m not sure how many daily devotionals I’ll write up, but here’s Day 3 for you.

Day 3 Devotional: Don’t Quit

Wednesday, September 21st

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Such a simple phrase, yet holds so much power.

Don’t Quit. 

Whether you’re in a job that is hard to wake up for, you’re in losing a battle to a nasty illness, or you’re knee deep in an addiction, I pray that you don’t give up.

You may take twenty steps forward, just to take one huge, giant leap backwards. But please, don’t quit.

I pray now for encouragement.

Holy Spirit, you are light. You are newness. You are comfort and peace. I pray that our eyes would be opened wide to see MORE of you today, and less of our failure. May your presence and peace engulf us in a warm embrace. May we feel connected to your fruit of peace, patience, kindness and endurance. Help us to know, we are SAFE to endure this day. This season of life. Help us to stand firm in faith, and in the present moment. And give us courage to keep going, to just get through this day. With your power and your holy help.

Amen.

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I’m Free in Christ Alone

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I took an impromptu trip to Santa Monica this morning. The beach was beautiful, and so were the people who peppered the boardwalk. The crashing waves lured me with their roar. Although I was surrounded by beauty of the present moment, the truth remains that this world is not quite whole. Just like a youthful face succumbing to older age, our earth has wrinkles and blemishes and imperfections. Which leads me to the comfort of the freedom I find in Christ. Not freedom in the ocean breeze. Not freedom in the sand between my toes or the circumstances I’ve been blessed with, but by Jesus alone. In Him, I AM FREE.

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Healing in Christ Alone

We look to alcohol to fulfill us with fun. 

We ask for our job to give us meaning. 

We search within for answers unknown. 

We desire the greenest grass beyond our reach. 

It isn’t until…

We surrender our hearts to God. 

We seek His ways above our own. 

We need more of Him than our idols. 

We want his path and forsake our own. 

That we find continual rest, renewal and pure truth. 

I wish I didn’t fight against you every day, my Lord. 

I wish I accepted your plan and laid down my own. 

For the glory of it all. 

I pray for every brother and sister who takes breath in you today that you would renew our minds in Christ Jesus. It’s a new day. Amen. 

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Day 2 Devotional: Letting Jesus Fight the Battle

“Keep running. Keep trying. Don’t fight it. Stop crying.”

Those are the notions that drain from the world and flow in a river to find me unfurled.


God protects

“Run with me. I’ve got this. I’ll give you my shield. I’ll protect you from wind. The enemy will yield.”

That is my Lord who speaks over me and with his great power, only He sets me free.

Thank you God for the ways your holy spirit empowers me and protects me. Thank you for freeing me from the pressures of this world. From the nagging voice that tells me that I need to be stronger. Only in you Lord do I find the freedom of letting go and allowing you to be my strength for me. Thank you for fighting life’s arduous battles for me. Thank you for conquering the impossible. Thank you for your victory. Today I stand knowing that I’m victorious in you.

Ephesians 6:14-17 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God